The Cupid's Curse

Twilight descends,
The stars peek out,
High up on the trees the peacocks crying out loud,
And so does my heart with bitter longingness,
Crushed by this never-ending pensiveness,
Oh so distracted from the affairs of life,
Object of infatuation upon a pedestal in the mind,
Immense adulation for thy beauty divine,
An agape worshipper from day to night,
Like nocturnal moths attracted to light,
The yin of my pupil to the yang of your white,
In my stomach, a frenzied army of butterflies,
Chaotic and calm at the same time,
Rustling of the leaves, passing is a soft breeze,
Shivering is the skin, a charged contact from someone akin,
Buzzing, buzzing, like cryptic crickets,
Glowing, glowing, this divine spirit,
Enraptured now, taking in your scent,
Like plants of jasmine, putting up an aphrodisiac act,
Your sight so addicting, as I stand gaping unaware,
Legs now stone, lifeless, like Ozymandias in despair,
Paralyzed is this body, hypnotized is the mind,
Soul now dancing in a state of trance,
Is this the Cupid's idea of a romance? 

Musings of the day

It would be a lie to say that I love driving in the city. Ofcourse it's a comfort but however tiring it is, I always learn a new lesson while taking the public transport along the way back. Either that or just feel profound emotions that leave an impact on me for a while.
Today while coming back I saw a couple with a young kid. They were the saddest two people I've ever seen in my life. From what I gathered they were coming back from regency- a well known hospital in the city. I couldn't stop looking at them... It felt like the whole world had condemned those two people to eternal misery. Maybe they lost someone or were worried about somebody's health that they were close to, maybe they didn't have enough money to pay for the treatment, maybe the child with them had something going wrong with him. Whatever it was, blame in on the mirror neurons because soon enough I wanted to cry like a baby! It was too heartbreaking. I've never been the emotional kind but at that moment I had the heaviest of hearts. I meet a lot of different people everyday, a lot of them going through some kind of suffering I never knew existed, I never imagined would hit anybody. I went to have tea with a guy in my coaching today who I later found out was 24 years old and had dropped engg to do CA. He was at the same level as mine (keeping in mind that I'm just 19 right now, have no immediate responsibilities, no backlogs) while he had failed 4 times in this level and was again determined to give the upcoming exams. It's crazy how people still continue to persist... still have ambitions, are still motivated to make it work even if that motivation comes from fear alone which might be in his case, the constant nagging fear of how he keeps getting older and soon will have a lot of responsibilities in hand. Even after all this, people are still kind. Even if life continues to hit them hard, the force of the blow so fierce that some may crumble, they still are very kind and humble.
I also sometimes am amazed at how nice people can be. Whether it's the policeman who always waves a bye to me on my way back home, or the tea stall guy striking up a conversation about how the weather is, everyone... just constantly seeking for something human in this inhumane world of suffering they go through on a daily basis to make ends meet, to fulfil responsibilities.
All this makes me think how blessed I have been to never have much to worry about when it comes to prosperity, health or my relationships with family and friends. It does get harsh at times and it will in the future as well but the people I meet or talk to are on a different level of suffering which just kills me from inside.
In the end, I realize I cannot do much about it other than continue to better myself as a human being and shower love wherever and whenever possible. And never to hurt anybody because every human being walking this planet is going through things unimaginable, even if it does not solve their problem but a little smile and a nice conversation, even if about how harsh the weather is, can preserve their belief in humanity again.

Pizza or you?

Anxiously I wait for my pizza order,
Even more anxiously to catch a glimpse of you,
Scanning the crowd, night turning colder,
With an earnest desire, of which I never knew 

And so it arrives, my pizza soon,
Red sauce like your rosy cheeks, I swoon
Olive reminding me of your eyes so fine,
Dazzling, sparkling when they look at mine

I take a bite, oh those lips so smacking!
The crust, this crush, look there are fireworks cracking,
My eyes still looking for someone in blue,
The pizza has arrived but where are you?

Suddenly the world loses its colour,
Absence does makes the heart grow fonder,
A pizza left alone by its former lover,
I finally see you during a pink floyd cover

Deja vu!

One fine day,
and really the finest it was,
Out of sheer curiosity and boredom,
Or maybe just to satisfy my lonely soul,
Rather convince it again that there lies no another like it, 
Decide to explore an unknown world,
Slightly terrified and with little expectations,
Fingers dancing, clockwise, sweeping across this unfamiliar, unconventional world,
Chuckling and in awe at how technology can change anything but the deepest desires of the beings,
If only there was one to keep the Alice in me from falling and falling more into the wonderland,
And I did wonder/wander for a long time in this land,
But it was a dance without hope, a waltz without any scope,
Cursing myself now- what a waste of your time!,
Yet fate took a different turn and so I think (and so I hope),
A horizon so clear in front of me,
Fingers stop dancing, sweep to the right and take a bow,
Suddenly time is not wasteful at all, or rather every second flutters by happily,
Closer and closer I'm in a seashore now,
The sand warm against my feet,
Finding myself (or someone like me?)
The seashells screaming out my name, porcupine trees everywhere,
Falling now, falling into the sands swallowing me up,
Hoping to stay here forever, under the intelligent sun,
Hands moving forward trying to grasp the sun, the soul, hoping it's all real? Is it real?